Makeup Artist

My Journey:

Since mum has passed away i went through all the stages of grief such as feeling lonely accepting that your loved one is gone forever mostly living without them, all of these stages were hard I mean really hard but what hit me the most was finding myself without mum guidance as I realized when i thought i knew myself and know what i stand for that was not the case and that feeling is something i can not explain.

I feel into all sorts of problems through this time was drinking through the pain, not taking care of myself,was around a narcissistic person and made silly decisions list continues but with all this I was so ashamed and hiding how i was actually feeling and confessing to my family what mess i got myself into

I know what you guys might be thinking when reading this "you had your family with you" yes i did i am always grateful for my family that were there for me but in reality i never felt like i could be confined in anyone that would not judge me on how i felt as i was embarrassed not myself.

Through all this i started fresh and moved in with my dad and Karin finding comfort in confessing all my mistakes and all my pain to sum it up for months i was crying. Not going to lie I felt like ending it for so many reasons mostly for feeling worthless this is called depression. Karin and Dad taught me loads about myself how amazing i am and made me feel loved which has been a long time since I have felt that so i am always so grateful for them as it wasn't for them i wouldn't be where I am today.

I didn't just magically feel better it was a lot of hard times accepting what i did wrong and how many people i hurt in the process but it is not just that it is also very important to get rid of negativity out of yourself a quote or maybe some said this to me can't remember "if something or someone is not serving you or making you doubt yourself get rid of that negativity out of your life" once i practiced this I instantly felt lighter happier.

To make myself feel more in control of my life and myself i turned to my religion Christianity for help in simple words I gave all my worries and doubts to god and pray every night to lead me on the right

Happiness is a choice

Wake up with a smile and go after life!

Does this mirror selfie make me look good?

I am gonna live like tomorrow doesn’t exist 🍾 🇦🇪

Christmas Day brunch 🎁🍹

Birthday glam makeup 💄