Jenna Bliss2New

I ain’t even gon lie. I ain’t been on this page in a minute. N I still got ppl showing it love. I appreciate it. I been on all my other accounts but have checks this one in a lil minute n just got a notification that I had 300 new followers so I had to come check it out. I just wanna say I appreciate yall n I’ll try to start posting more on here but I got so many now I forget I swear I do

My names Jenna and 6 years ago I was addicted to benzos n opiates and I was also a domestic abuse survivor……thru it all I was able to maintain……but when I met Fetty it took me down a whole different kinda hell n i Went from looking like this to looking like this……..dnt do drugs yall……..I’m now 3 yrs sober n clean n back to looking photo number 1……fentanyl took me to places perks n zanz could never n i dont ever wanna go down them again

I remember sitting in bed late at night crying to phone just waiting on it to ring bc once again it was 3 am n I was still in bed alone……I remeber I used to wonder was this really how I was gon spend the rest of my life….waiting at home alone every night…..never being able to be myself…….never being able to have a voice……never wanting to be sober bc then that would mean I’d have to face what was really going on and how chaotic I had alllwed my life to get…..I remember feeling caged n trapped n like that woukd always be my life bc I had no idea how to even start to change it…..I remember thinking many nights how easy it would be to just end it all. The pain the abuse the struggle the misery everything……looking back now at how alone n vulnerable I was n how I can’t believe I even thought about ending me n how I thought that was my only option to stop what was happening….i felt I nobody would ever make me feel like HE DID eve again and for some crazy reason that scared me bc I was convinced the more he whooped n controlled me the more he loved me…….i felt all those feeling and caged like that when I was free as a bird in real life but my mind was doing a life sentence and my body was fighting a war……fast forward a few year later when I was actually sitting in a cage at what should’ve been the lowest point in my life…….but it was then n there I found the strength to take my heart n my life back…..and at a time when I should’ve felt the lowest n the worst i felt in my life…..n the loneliest…..and the most trapped….i finally felt free…..i finally felt like i knew who tf I was again for once…… my spirit died in Aug 2010. But Nov of 2019 It was born again

The day after Valentine’s Day used to be so depressing for me…….i was usually left alone in my own thought thinking about how bad The actual valentines was n y I allowed myself to put up with that kinda bulls**t treatment…..I would spend all day getting high asf just to block out the pain n to numb the way I was feeling n the disgust I had with myself…..but then again this day didn’t look much different than any other day…..
And back then to me I could’ve never really celebrated that day anyway bc it’s a day of love and back then the only thing I loved was the drugs n the only thing I thought loved me was th drugs…..
Now here I am 3 years sober n I’m still struggling to love myself……everyone talks about how good they feel whn they get sober n how much better life is when u get outta toxic abusive relationships and get sober….and how much better they look n feel…..
BUT NO ONE TALKS ABOUT those days n weeks or years u go hating the person u see looking back at u in the mirror….or self esteem issues they have bc they feel they don’t feel they look better…..or the depression n the low energy they have when they get sober…..now don’t get me wrong…..these bad days still have nothing on my bad or good using days…..but these feeling thoughts n days sometimes weeks n months do exist…..not everyone bounces back and feels 100 percent better some of us really did a toll on our body n our mental health and do t get that same glow up…..but im here to talk about it bc I know im not the only one. I just know alot of ppl DNT wanna admit it bc society has made getting sober look like one thing but in reality nobodies looks the same…..
But id still rather be sober like this any day of the week……
Than high like that for one second of a minute!!!!

Storytime of my valentine 2015…..valentine horror story

I went to bed alone per usual and was woke up around 4am to him stumbling in high n drunk…… his phone kept ringing n I wasn’t slowwww but I was honestly by this point over the fights n black eyes….when he was FKN with them he wasn’t FKN with me so id learned to just enjoy these peaceful times n I just wanted peace for Valentine’s Day…..I remember laying down in the bed n I must’ve dozed off bc I woke up to hearing one of my dogs growling. They were both in the cage but the cage was in the closet in the bathroom…. I yelled for her to hush n tried to fall back asleep. Well then I heard what sounded like someone scratching glass n both dogs were growling….i woke him up or tried too to see if he heard it as well He barely moved n so I started to get up n put some clothes on n that noise was getting louder so I walked in the bathroom yall and THERE WAS A FKN FEMALE TRYNA CLIMB IN THAT LIL ASS BATHROOM WINDOW above the toilet….yall I was like stunned but shocked but not really shocked bc I realized which dumb slu+ it was (the one that gave me the most issues the whole ten yrs) so I ran over n slammed the window shut…… I ran out the bathroom and was walking into
The living room thinking by now he’d of woke up. But no. So I said Yoo one of ur lil beeches is tryna break in the house. This man gon say. Well dnt open the door😮😮😮😮 like whaaatttttt……oh u got me fkd up…….so I’m at the door with her banging on it screaming his name so i put my hair up n all n open the door ready to beat this hoe axx but when I open the door it wasn her standing there. It was her home girl n the girl was standing by my car putting something on the windshield im telling her to get tf away from my car. She telling me to go get “her BD”………. 🫤🫤🤔🤔🤔😧😧😲🙄🙄. Waittttt whaaaa????? So I said “ur bd ____ WTF r u talkn bout now” She just kept saying “go get my BD” while her home girl was standing in the doorway tryna keep us separate…. By this time he had finally came walking into the room acting like he was sooo confused so I’m asking him wtf she talking bout her BD she yelling back that he was supposed to go with her to the appt this is am n blah blah blah. He telling me she’s lying he’s smirking at her saying she’s fkn crazy so by this time it had gotten pretty heated I was tryna fight her she was tryna fight him he was tryna brush everything off as usual I still thought she was lying about everything bc I’d already been thru so much with this girl. We’d already fought prolly ten times on other occasions….so im tryna push both of them out the door so I can atleast close it n lock it. I was over it. So I get the door closed n they’re still on the porch yelling for him to come out n talk. He’s walked back to the room has the audacity to be laying back down like I wasn’t boutta be questioning tf outta him. So I’m asking him what kind of appt she was talking about y she calling u her bd etc. of course he said she’s lying again as usual….. I looked out n they were pulling out the drive way. So I open the door n see that paper still on my windshield…..I walked down to get it and see my trunk had been keyed AGAIN…..I unfolded the little piece of paper and my breath was literally snatched from my body n my heart started pounding so hard n fast i thought it was come out my throat….. I slowly walked up the steps almost having to drag myself n hold the rail so i didn’t fall. My legs n knees so shaky I sat on the couch just staring at this piece of paper that had just shattered my whole world…… a sonogram!!!!!!! He couldn’t lie anymore…..I sat there for two hrs til he woke up thinking he was gonna come in there n explain….this was all a big lie he was sorry n we were gonna go outta town to try n salvage what was left of this valentine ….but that didn’t happen. You would’ve thought nothing had even happened…. He walked into the living room already dressed sat down on the couch to put his shoes back on texted on his phone stood up kissed me on my forehead yall AND WALKED OUT THE HOUSE….. I sat there in disbelief for what seems like forever when there was a knock at the door….anytime I was alone n someone knocked I would always make sure the pistol was near me…..I opened the door and it was her again asking g where he was. By this time I was pi**ed off felt disrespected confused and wasnt tryna do no talking nor was i tryna fight a pregnant ho3n a so I push her out the door and was just gonna close it but she had her foot in it and been her funky axx friend pushed the door open on me n she swung on me so me n her started fighting I was on top of her an her friend gon jump in and pull me off n hold me down and then then preggers gon mace tf outta me right in my face yall I couldn’t see s**t. Then thy just gon leave n I didnt know it at the time cuz inwas blind but the beetch stole the 🔫 too…… my face was burning so bad n I couldn’t even to use my phone so I just hit send on the last person hoping it was him or his mama but it wasnt yall…..IT WAS HIS ACTUAL REAL BM 😂😂😂😂😂. I had called her the night before bc me n her had actually became friends bc she was the one who let me know he was fkn my best friend that was living in my house watching me get my face beat in not wrking sleeping on my couch not paying s**t but going on shopping sprees while I wrkd n payed the bills while they rode around in my car n left me home type s**t. So she picked up n I told her what happened and came flying over n brought me some milk so could see again and we wen to the hood to pull up on him bc he was acting like I was the issue for “letting her take” the 🔫….we pulled up to where he was and would yall know she was ready there so here we go again……now tell me why it was me n his baby mama against her her AND HIM…… im fightin MY MAN n his bumaxx make a wish mightbe baby mama n her minion with HIS REAL BABYMAMA in the middle of the hood n it wasn’t even noon yet BUT HAPPY VALENTINES DAY YALL

Let me just say that the last 6 valentines ive had have been drama free no fights no black eyes no random pop ups no wondering where she was or who she was with no baby mama drama no having to cover the bruises no waiting up late til she gets home no nothing. They been pretty boring n basic but peaceful n I actually am being loved…..ten valentines n never once got one gift……so now Valentine’s Day is weird bc I dnt really celebrate it. I don’t ever buy gifts bc that’s just what I got so used to. It ruined alot of my holidays bc he never got me Christmas he never got me birthdays he never really did anything except show me over n over again how much HE DIDNT LOVE OR RESPECT ME……..so now when holidays come around that I should be excited about n love doing but I dnt…..they do t even feel the same. And it sucks bc I wish I felt like making these days special for my girl like I see in the movies but to me their just another day now but it’s kinda cool bc my girl never really celebrated these holidays either so it’s like we both just be chilling n not making a big deal about them….n there’s no place I’d rather be on this Valentine’s Day then right here getting on here nerve. Girl dnt worry bout no dam valentine just get over here n gimme sum vaginaTIME 😂😂
TELL ME SOME OF YALLS VALENTINE DAY HORROR STORIES I WANNA HEAR EM ALL

If u don’t understand me
………..u prolly not gon stand me🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️😘😘💯💯🤏🏼💪🏻🤌🏽

I REALLY NEED SOMEONE TO SIT N SMOKE WITH ME N HELP ME BRUSH MY DREADS OUT….. I have most of what I can brush out brushes out. The rest I can’t see to get too….. I dnt want the back bottom two rows brushes out I’m leaving them in. But I want the rest brushed out…… I love my dreads but right now with these health issues I’m having I literally go to sleep n wake up 15 pnds heavier some days and looking chubby n bloated every where n I just dnt like the way they look anymore when my body dos this n my face looks fat When my face looks fat I jus hate my hair. I honestly hate everything right now but I cant change nothing but my hair lol my fridge is full of ozempic shots wegovy monjourno etc. none of them worked. Just made me sick asf for months. I wrk out I diet I starve myself I’ve done drugs etx. Nothing has worked in 5 yrs. The docs don’t know nor do they care….. I’m gonna ask my doc to put me on Spironolactone and metformn bc this is the last option. Supposedly if the shots dnt wrk and wrking out is t wrking it’s my cortisol n hormones n it dnt matter what I do if they dnt get fixed nothing will help so I’ve heard tha these meds worked for ppl that the other didn’t. Has anyone else had these issues or tried thaw meds and have any feedback ack from them…….if so please let me know c im really losing hope. I want surgery on my waist arms n face so bad but can’t afford it with how expensive it is just to live now…..but I have literally have it all I couldn’t did everything I knew to do…I jus keep gaining. N it’s not even actual fat. It’s that jiggly sagging bloated water weight that comes n goes….its fkd with me mentally so bad bc it just happened so fast n I dont even hardly eat anything all I drink is water. How I gain weight wrking out on the shots eating carrots drinking water is absolutely INSANE n not normal. I ate more than I do now on drugs homeless n I was 139 pounds then so this dnt make any sense….. but if anybody is bored and just wants to eat fruit smoke some w33d watch reality n ratchet tv shows while gossiping then please hit me up I GOT U n all I need u to do is help me brush my locs out. It’s not hard I promise….n tbh if ur one of those that dnt even like to talk thats evn better neither do I. 😂😂😂. Fr tho I need it done bad. I been debating this n going back n fourth with I do I dnt I do I dnt hoping id just lose the weight n like em again. But it’s just not happening so I just really want my curls back. Truth be told I’ll prolly still be unhappy then too. I’m nkt gonna be happy til this fkn weight gets tf off me I just want my skinny face n body back and this fkn water weight to go tf on somewhere I literally dnt even look in mirrors anymore.

What’s crazy is I haven’t got not ONE single like comment or share from ANYONE in my family……..not none of my family or ppl I use to consider friends has gave me any support since I really been trying to do this…..NOT ONE ……n since i had to start this new page they n not none of em took me serious…..so I’m not only posting to post IM POSTING WITH A PURPOSE N A POINT TO PROVE🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️🤌🏽🤌🏽🤌🏽💪🏻💪🏻 all the support I’ve got has came from ppl I met on here new ppl that just got on board or ppl who knew of me n knew my story but not really personally or close……so i move real different n accordingly when it come to them now….