Amanda Lilmama Owens

Daddy's not supposed to make it through the night. I'm being blamed for being selfish, stupid, a worthless POS, and All my cute lil nicknames. Still love and forgive them daily just the same. Pray it comforts them right now to think they're right. IDC what it makes me seem to be I cannot go to the hospital. It doesn't mean I don't want to be with him. It means I refuse to be there if and when my biggest hero dies. And No damn one is gonna make me. I don't care how it makes anyone else feel or what their opinion of me is bc of it. That's between me,my daddy, and the man upstairs. No one else saved my life like my daddy did. No one else protected me and he made sure I wasn't abused as a child ever again. He gave me childhood memories that doesn't hurt remembering. He gave me my love for Chevys and for getting greasy. He helped me with my homework. He took me to practice and all my games. I learned my lesson plenty but never once did he raise his hand. No my daddy gave me lectures instead. Lectures soooo long I begged him to please daddy just whip me instead. Best thing he ever taught me and I live by it everyday and that's that...Life teaches more than enough through pain. A parents job to teach through love and decent human beings do their best to do by others just the same. I'm not sorry for being as terrified as I am to lose my dad. I know he will be better off but a world without him is a very scary place. Pray the world is blessed with more just like him. Prayers for my daddy please and for the loved ones he may be leaving behind and all too soon. 💋