Midlife Meno-"Pause"

So I created this page as an outlet for me and to help others. I really wanted to make something of it. Unfortunately, I just dont have the time to devote the effort I need to make anything successful of this page. I created it because I needed a place to get away from things and vent and talk about what I am going thru and how it affects me and In doing that I hoped to connect with others going thru similar issues and let them know they are not alone. Unfortunately I am just dont get enough time to be able to consistently post enough content to make it worth continuing
So this coming week I will be deleting the content and the page. Thanks for everyone who supported me in this. Maybe I will try again someday.

Just a little morning thought as I arrive home after dropping my mom off at the airport to go see me sister. The similarities in early childhood and late adult years are astounding. When you are young you are learning all new things, you have to be taught everything as you grow. When you get older, technology becomes difficult because it's not the same as what you learned when u were young, and it seems like even the simplest things that we all take for granted have to be reexplained as we age and start to forget what we have learned. As a child of elderly parents, this can be frustrating at times, but I just have to take a deep breathe and remember they were probably frustrated with me once when I was young and I was learning new things. Just a little food for thought on this Sunday Morning. Have a great week everyone.

Im not going to post a video tonight because I just dont have it in me but I just wanted to get on and check in. A few days ago I made one of the hardest decisions of my life. I decided it was time to end my marriage of 24 yrs. I have not yet filed but will be in a couple of months after our youngest graduates high school. My heart hurts so bad. But I had to make a decision for myself. A decision for peace. I just can't fight anymore, I can't keep trying so hard for something that just isn't going to happen. These last few years have been rough. I just can't believe that after everything we've been thru that this is where we have ended up. But my hope is that we will both find the peace we need. That we will learn from this and move toward our futures even if that is two seperate futures instead of one. I love my husband with all my heart and oh how I wish we could have fixed this. I wanted more than anything to fix things and be in a loving, faith lead marriage with no fighting, no deception, no yelling(yes that was me mostly). Just love, faith and family. It just wasn't in the cards for us.

Moving forward on this page, you can follow my journey of rediscovering who I am. As I work to rediscover my faith, my family dynamic, my career and my future without the one person I thought would be at my side until the end.

Whatever you hear or whatever you are told, please dont believe that this is what I wanted. It truly is not.

God Bless you all and I will post again soon. Thanks for following me on this journey.

Studying real estate with the puppers napping next to me.